in case you ever wonder

i tend to avoid situations where i might seem needy. you might have mistaken this for independence or snobbery. it had everything to do with you and my intense wish to make it work this time. whatever it may be. because honestly, i'm not sure i believe in love. i'm not sure it's possible for two people or anybody for that matter to connect on anything but a superficial level. and that's all my fault. oh well. you'll find someone else: someone more suited to your lifestyle. i'm too tired to have fun, too insecure to splash around in the ocean or host parties on weekends.
i'm just too tired.