biting metal

I can only say that it's like the way it feels when you forgot to take off all the wrapper on your gum (back in the day) and accidentally bit into a piece of the metal. that feeling of surprise when all you can focus on is the pain and how to stop it. that bright flash of blue light that comes from out of nowhere.
this is the way i feel when i see things that remind me of ex boyfriends or things that should. this is the way i feel when i walk past the princess pub or drive up the 101 or the 5 to my parent's house. when i go into nob hill grocery store at home, or the cedar house, or taunya's i always have this feeling. when my phone rings or my email chimes or i open my mailbox: hoping.