Later

A wish from Ana to me while stoned on acid, 1 June, 1995

Trish, you've asked to write in Journal about this wonderful truth I've just found out. I will try to tell you many truths I know, I'll number them. Some might hurt you. Some might make you cry, not with your usual sad tears, but tears will make your entire body fry with absolute tears that taste just like this tea. Truths go like this:
1. you are not in any trouble with the devil. Something else is haunting you. Believe me, Trish. I can see your soul as of now, and it's so amazing to say that it is the most beautiful soul in the universe that's ever seen by me. It's not purple. I really expected it to be purple, but Trish, it's silvery-gold not silver and gold, but silvery-gold. Like a Rainbow star, every color together makes silvery-gold. It has no shape. Actually, I can't even actually see with my eyes. I can just feel it, and I know everything to know about it, not just the outside of it, just the beautiful middle inside, like it's straight to the heart. Now the silvery-gold has a rose tint. Trish, if you could feel the beauty of your soul, you'd cry. You'd cry because you'd stop thinking nasty thoughts about yourself, you'd just see the fact that you are beautiful and all of your ugly thoughts will just melt away like a rainbow slips away. The reason you are crying is because you are afraid that without these nasty soul-messiers you will be truly happy. Change is always scary, Trish, but see yourself with this new light and then the beauty in you can truly shine though. I forgot to tell you, bit I see the black mark on you r soul. You and I see the same soul, but out of different eyeshadow. The ugliness in your soul is my black mark. Actually, he's not all black, he's fading into a dark brown. This is because I can see you are starting to believe in yourself and since you and I are Bod you are believing stronger in god. This is why your spot is lightening. This brings me to what I told you in the Kitchen. It's about lying to your soul. All of your sad thoughts and fears are lies. This is why your ugliness is fighting with the beauty. Hopefully, your beauty can win sometime. I hope this helps you understand that fear of a bad trip is what will cause a bad trip. You have to have your mind ready to accept your true self or the Evil men that are trying to get you will win and you'll have a bad trip. So sweetheart, you have to clear the inside of your head and you can have a fantastic trip. Purple, Blue, green, Ev everything. If not it will scare you. Now, don't be afraid. Keep reading witch. Read about Archie Fiesta. Then it might make you understand what I'm saying better, clearer. Anyway, I have more to say but y'r begging for your book so I''l let you have it back (heart) and (peace) for ever. Ask ME anything today. This is the wise pot and I'm omniscient right now. I (heart) you.


Corrine, Lexy, all those uglies, all of them are messengers of your soul. That girl was a messenger of your soul too. It shows the spot lighting up. Get it:?