fractured

I had another breakdown today. It's embarrassing to admit, but this happens on a regular basis. I try to express a feeling and suddenly the floodgates open. I can't stop them, it just makes it worse.

Perhaps even more embarrassing is the fact that my boss, due to being the only human being I interact with on a personal level on most days, has to endure these. This time she told me that all of my communication as of late has expressed a message of fractured relationships that end up leaving me feeling insecure. It's true.

Nick talks a lot about looking at myself through my third eye. That's not my problem. My problem seems to be that I am acting independent of myself and my desired actions. When I started to cry today everything in my was screaming STOP! but I couldn't stop.