We had captains call yesterday. i hate to hear people bitch. CO asked if anyone had a problem with CMC and all sorts of shitbag hands went up. i got so pissed i started shaking. "he's not for us, he's mean. he never tells us we do a good job", etc. stupid fucks. he's not there to coddle us. he's there to put a boot in our asses. and he does recognize excellence, but he shows it in a different way. he's the one who got me my "c" school when the whole rest of the COC said no. he's the reason why i'm a second. i had to get in the first Lt's ass yesterday too. she hasn't been cleaning the head, and she was sleeping during cleaning stations. it was like i was a mom telling a kid to clean their room. nobody wants to do their job anymore. i just want to shake people and remind them that we're in the navy, not in high school. who cares if you're sick, you still come to work. nobody brought their mother along to write them a sick note. if training is after your regular twelve hour shift, who cares? where in the fuck else would you go? all in all yesterday was an angry day. i have so much work to do and too much bullshit is getting in my way. i'm going to start punching people in the neck. that will make it all better. i need to stop whining.
my crush situation is going relatively well. i think he's a bit smitten, but i can never tell. i can't wait to hang out with him. he smells so good.