a sermon from a freed man

(an e-mail from adrian sizemore, the departed rebel)

I was standing on my balcony last night puffing on one of my cigars and
came to a fairly emotional epiphany, I do not miss that boat one bit. I can
honestly say that there is not one thing that I miss about that boat. Some
may say, "Well, at least you always had something to do". For those who may
continue to live with that tid bit of nonsense, Go Die!!! Others could
possibly mention that, "Hey, at least you were getting paid a decent wage".
For those of you who are staying there because of that, you go die with the
other guys. Now for the, "Well at least I will get some type of
retirement", FUCK YOU. What the hell kind of retirement is $1500/mos, not
including the taxes from that, for the rest of you life. You can save your
money invest it wisely and make that much by the time you are ready to
retire. Don’t think so, well I challenge you to step out of you pathetic
little comfort zone and try it. Here is the truth, you do not need that
place. You don’t need their bullshit games and backwards doublethink
philosophy of how to live your life. Look people, those ass holes never
took a chance in there life, so who the hell are they to tell you what to do
with your life. Don’t believe me? Just take a good look at your bosses,
you tell me they stayed cause they, "Love the Navy", or were they scared?

Look, I left the Navy homeless without a place to go. I had to sleep
in a hotel for a week. Yes it cost me about $236.00, to be precise, and I
had to sleep in my car a couple of nights. But every day that I faced an
uncertain future I came to the realization that hey, there really is nothing
holding me back from doing what ever the fuck I want to do. So within a
week and two days I found a really nice looking studio for $370/month. I
met a really nice woman at the unemployment office and she is taking a look
at my evals to help me build a resume. One of the Department heads at the
school I am applying for is enthused to meet me and said that she, "Will do
what it takes" to get me started there. A Counselor at the Unemployment
Security Commission is willingly bending over backwards to help me collect
unemployment, and even telling me how to beat the system.

I can keep going, but the point here is to understand that you will
never be all you want to be while you are there. Sure it's easy money, but
the rewards will never amount to what you could get if you just take a
chance and see what your true potential is. Those ass holes that are your
bosses are afraid of you and your intelligence because it’s a direct threat
to their way of life. They will hold you down and suppress you because they
are too afraid to take a chance. They are too stupid to understand what it
is you are doing so they dumb it down and make you feel incompetent. Don’t
let them ruin your lives. Let it feed your desire to be free; and when you
finally make it to the outside then you will, "Discover that you had not
truly lived".

No one is stopping you from doing what you want to do, but you.

A

p.s.
This isnt my, "Oh I miss you guys and every one there", email. Fuck that,
spread the hate and never let them choose your fate.